*2020 was full of big emotions. Being locked down for months, separated from our loved ones and a pregnancy that was not very pleasant. This is part 2 of my thoughts at a particularly difficult time.
Last week with our 5th lockdown extended I have noticed some similarities. Part 2 of my pre-dated series. I wrote this one at 24 weeks pregnant 28/10/20*
I've been finding it difficult to publish what I am writing lately.
There is a lot of negativity out there so I've been having a bit of a hiatus from the socials.
I have some big thoughts going on that I really wasn't ready to share until now. I also wasn't ready to share these on a public forum. In not sharing I was actually blocking myself once again and the reason I started this blog was to share my life and support a community of people.
Lockdown sucks. Not being able to see my family and friends sucks. But I've chosen to take this time to learn, grow and be positive whilst living a much quieter life.
Dean and I were always great at communication but going through this has made us a sounding board to each other's worries as we don't have many people we can lean on close by for support. We have had downtimes as so many have and have struggled to navigate through it but now months later we know how to move forward, see the signs and support each other.
I will not get this time back and being able to be present for my daughter without distraction has been incredible. She is teaching me so much and changing day by day. The miracle of parenthood leaves me in awe and often in tears.
Having quiet time used to scare me, I was pretty much out in the car from one thing to another. Nowadays I spend 3 days at home without leaving the house and I don't even realise. I never thought it would be something I enjoyed.
I've learned to meditate...I know...I didn't think it was possible! I am connecting to weekly zooms that are uplifting and helping my creative side develop and awaken to something new. Being at home has actually helped my creativity flow.
Checking in with people is a priority. Mental health issues are through the roof and people are struggling, businesses are struggling. Putting the lack of socialisation and opinions of Dan Andrews aside - Are you checking in on people? Do you need support? Are you shopping locally or supporting small businesses that may need your help? It's not about spending ridiculous amounts of $. It can be as simple as asking a question. If you need it, ask for help!
A big one to remember. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Try not to get on the defense or be disheartened if it doesn't align with you. It's ok, take a deep breath. Bless and release.
I am 24 weeks pregnant. We decided not to tell many people as it's been an awkward time to share such lovely news. It's also been incredibly difficult and emotional. I have used this time to focus on my health and conserve my energy. The choice to keep this news on the quieter side has been special. It's news that we have been able to control which is nice in a time where there is so much uncertainty.
Sending lots of love to all who need it and please be kind always xo
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