Today I dropped Frankie at childcare for the first time in 4 months!
New Childcare. a new neighbourhood, new friends and new opportunities.
She did a few days of orientation and loved it but today was the day. Her first full day
In we went, she was a little clingy but took the hand of the educator and off she went. She walked into the room and the door closed behind her. She is a little trooper and absolutely craves social time with kids. Seeing her interactions with kids since the lockdown lifted has shown me how confident she is becoming and it's so beautiful.
I still wanted photos and hugs and eye contact and Covid makes these special moments a little rushed. It would appear that I wasn't ready as when I left the centre my eyes started welling up with tears as I walked to the car completely involuntarily and It caught me by surprise.
We've already been through this before but this was obviously like a reset for me as there had been a long gap and a lot of change in between. It was a very similar wave of emotions I wrote about in a blog almost exactly one year ago only this time it was also fueled by extra hormones! I sobbed all the way home then ugly cried to Dean. The dog didn't know what to do with me. I realise that I needed to feel these emotions and I'm not ashamed of them. Holding it in would have ruined my day. I feel guilt, I miss my little mate but I also feel a lot of pride. Feel your feels!
It's now been 3 hours and I feel a lot better. I didn't plan a lot of activities or book anything as the situation is a little bit different this time. I haven't talked about it much but this pregnancy has had a few complications and because of this I have to spend more time off my feet which isn't so easy with a busy toddler, so this is the luxury I will be spending a lot of today doing. I've watched a Christmas film, tidied the house, cuddled my dog and now written a blog and now time to think about heading somewhere for lunch. Life is good x
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